You´re never covered as much as you think you are. :)
M.J. the physical therapist told that joke to us.
Most of you know Mom is dying, but not every one knows the details. It was a week ago on Mon 2/21 that the doctors stopped giving mom nutrition (artificially through the tubes). Mom and Dad made the decision to stop the artificial nutrition and leave the number of days she has to live in God's hands. Mom is tired of doctor's appointments, chemo, artificial hydration and the works. I respect her decision to live out her days as she sees fit. The cancer has moved from breast, to liver, to bile duct and finally now her stomach and small intestines. They found food in her stomach that had been there for weeks and found her body is no longer efficiently digesting food so she is not able to eat any food, just fluids, and even those she throws up. Cancer is the cause but officially she will die of dehydration. The doctors say it's a humane way to die, because you just fade away.
Mom and I are very different. Dad and I are more alike, maybe that's why we butt heads so often. Jerry Dale on the other hand is very much like Mom. Now I'm not saying Mom loves Jerry more than me, but I suspect maybe just a little. It's alright he's very easy to love. Mom and Jerry have always been the peace makers in the family.
"Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God." Matthew 5:9
It is very difficult to impart how much I love my brother as well. He's a calm place in a storm, he's like my Dad a lot. A strong place to rest, capable and knowledgeable. But he's also very much like my Mother, tender and very soft hearted. Having both Jerry and I, well actually all four of us (Mom considers all of us her kids, Becca and Devon included) back home was a blessing to Mom. She had her family around her. It was a blessing to me as well, living in Canada I had forgotten how much I love Jerry and Becca, and miss them.
Saying goodbye to Jerry and Becca last Wednesday was one of the harder things to do, I can't imagine being Jerry, having to say goodbye to Mom and know it was the last time he would probably see her alive. People say I am strong for staying with my parents, but I think it is much harder to have to go. Jerry Dale is Mom's baby she and I laughed while getting her back into her bed I said that if Jerry were here he would probably crawl on to the small hospital bed to hug her. (Jerry is a big guy too!) I have seen Jerry wrap his arms around Mom and hug her off the ground. Yes, Jerry is very much like Dad, strong. He is very much like Mom, soft. He's the best of both worlds wrapped up in a crazy sense of humor, we love you very much Jer and miss you every hour.
"Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted." Matthew 5:4
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